evil evil evil

I need to admit that I am super addicted to tidbits and junks! Its a bad sign! I know I need to stop eating those chocolates, biscuits, sweets, ice creams and malay kuih, yet the temptation is so overwhelming. You may think I must be kidding. But its really so serious that I am constantly thinking of eating them! Gosh, did I jogged pass a hungry ghost recently or what... felt like I am so out of control! Sucks...

I guess the only way out is to not to walk pass Mr Bean, which is most likely when my tuition ends this Sunday, then I wun need to pass the one in Chinese Garden MRT (sucks... guess what, I have 2 soya+carrot juice in my fridge right now) and to finish up my ferrero and crispy choc asap. And then I shall declare NO NO to grocery shopping with Cy. :(

Argh... *frustrated*

Attended a lecture on eating disorder just now during HP314, I begin to wonder how was it like to be one of them. I think its difficult for us, a bystander to judge if they are crazy. As R has said, they are in control of their weight and health. Its their lives. Why should we be bothered to "help" when in fact, they view the "help" given as unnecessary. Moreover, if they do not regard those forced feeding during hospitalization as help, we are actually "torturing" them. hmmm... If I have the chance to meet these patients, it will be interesting.. definitely.

One scary thought came to my mind, if I meet them by chance, will I envy them?

I shall keep a report on the junks I eat each day here. So, I shall see if I improve over the daysss (how long will I need to get off the addiction? )

Day 1 (30 Sept):

1) 1 ferrero
2) 1 Crispy chocolate
3) 1 vanilla cone from McDonald
4) Yogurt, mixed berry
5) Half cup of soya+carrot juice from Mr Bean
6) 4 pieces of Tiger biscuits
7) 3 mint sweets


I AM SICK! *cry*