Counting down....

Counting down to 30th April 2008, 1 pm!

The very last paper that most of us are looking forward to.

After this paper, it will be holidays!

Actually, i hope it ends fast but at the same time i am wishing for a little more time to prepare for evopsych paper. Ting said, "suddenly evo like yi dian dou bu ke ai". ><" Since when was it ever cute? LOL

Evo showed us the crude way to look at the world. Every behavior and every events seems to have some intention behind it. It makes everyone seems so intentional and never sincere. I held on the principle that the world is nice and peopls around me are sincere. Yes, no doubt there are fakers, there are cheaters, there are bullies, there are murderers, there are repist, there are threats, and even potential natural disasters. However, those negative occurance are so salient to us because its negative. We just take positivity too much for granted! That's why we tend to NOT appreciate valuables within and among us.

Okay, I should be back in the study now. Chaoz... Have fun peepz... its ending soon!! :)

Infantile amnesia...

When and What was your earliest memory???

Nostalgia...

I was studying in hall 5 canteen just now, there was not many people, in fact, i think there was not more than 5 people in the entire canteen, thus, it was extremely quiet and peaceful. The wind that blow towards me made me feel so comfortable and peaceful. I rested a while at the chair, leaning backward and closed my eyes. The wind was so relaxing. The environment brought me back to when my family and I always go to Klebang beach during Sunday weekend when we will always go and chit chat under the coconut trees. Life back then were much much more simple. The teh tarik and pisang goreng feels damn good! :) I miss my Sunday family day! :)

update...

3 papers down... Management, Elementary Chinese and BioPsych. All were pretty ok. Chinese was a little difficult when asked han yu pin yin. :( But I did my best, memorising all the characters and kept writing and writing the entire day! BioPysch was ok too, the questions were straight forward, its like you either know or dun... No need to squeeze much of your brain for analytical thinking. Yep, that's biology actually! Oh, Patty is cruel. 72 MCQs, 10 fill in the blanks, and 3 18 marks essays! Wow, I write until the very last minute and my fingers got so so so numb! :P

Today, I almost shocked myself to death! When I reached SRC for the paper, one question strucked my head, "Is today biopsych??? or is it cognitive or evo? " OMG! Can you imagine if its not? Lawe... then I will be crazy le.... But luckily, I saw many of my coursemate taking bio textbook. Then I won't be wrong! I shall check my timetable next time. Should not take my amnesic-like memory convince me next time! :P

Two more papers to go to HOLIDAY! Woo hoo... can't wait for it! :) I am so sick of canteen food! :( I need more palatable food! LOL

some random pics taken at meals in canteen....

That mango mania is superb. However, I find $2.50 quite expensive. Oh the steamboat is recommended for steamboat lovers. This is enough for 2 pax! :)

Dissapointed!

How's the feeling of dissapointed? Feeling like a total failure, all hard work and effort thrown in to the deep sea, the sky seems grayer, grass less green, the flowers less beautiful, the mood just deeply inexplicable! Yes, no doubt I'm feeling a pinch of dissapointment when I checked my mail and received the bio-report marks! The more I think, the more sad i get!!!... SUCKS!!! My group get only HALF the points, and to make ourselve lower, the tutor can post all the other group's marks. We are indeed the lowest. *cry*

I now know the feeling of dissapointment is really that difficult to handle. Even though you had put so much effort, confirm not least compared to other groups, and this is what you get in the end.

Suddenly, I feel I could emphatise the feelings of those Arsenal's players last week when they lost to ManU. I just can't understand the sad face Cy protrayed last week. I was thinking what's the big deal. Yes, now I do! And I felt the exact same lost feelings right now. The players played so hard, passing the balls to each other, tackled, run and run and run... but only managed to put once the ball behind Van Der Sar. And ManU by luck and skill of course win them with a penalty and free kick. *weak smile*

I am incoherent... but the point is I'm dissapointed!

First day of paper... :)

Yes, its the my first paper today, (fundamental of management), I regretted SU-ing it, because with only 2 days of reading 3/4 of all lecture notes, i managed to answer all the questions, with relatively certain percentage of confidence. Too bad, I am not given any choice to de-SU it. LOL Hopefully I will not get S(A). Then, i will be the dumbest person on earth. Btw, just to say the paper was ok... and I should be a able to pass satisfactorily. LOL

The next paper is next Tuesday, CY and I wanted to take a night off! Yes, we went to eat pizza! LOL First time, I eat in Pizza Hut in Sg though, cause the more expansive here compared to in Msia. The price is the same but the currency is more than twice! :P But, I think CY is craving for it.

Oh ya, that day I call home, and my mom was asking, "eh how come your blog no more food photo?? "

Me : ><" OF COURSE LA.. Where got time to go eat!!!

Mi, nah, food from pizza. When I go home, I want to go eat Ikan Bakar! :)

Mango salad. :)

Ocean Catch... :)

Double me! LOL I always wonder what's its like to have a twin? I think it will be quite creepy right? Two julyn... that will be noisy! LOL

DINO after meal!

Sorry for the pathetic tiny pic of the movie we watched after the meal. Due to the time constraint and the fact that is way way pass midnight, i can't have time to find for a larger one. Btw, definitely maybe is quite interesting and relaxing. :) I like the actor, he is cute! :)

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Its time to sleep. Shall start preparing for my core and chinese paper tmr! I can't wait to go home and to have some holiday

:)

the Ridicule of truth...

What have I been doing?

Studying day and night of course, facing those invented, arbritary symbols that our ancestors had adapted to learn and passed down to us, WORDS...

Yes, that is our routine life, Cy and I will wake up in the morning and start our day, seated in front of each other, pluck on our mp3 and start studying. But what he is studying is was more disgusting than mine. All symbols, maths, integration, chem, structure of stuff we can't even see and doing past year paper. (Heng, psych no pass year paper! LOL )

Cy said, " You everyday study about SEX" hahaha.. that's true.. the topic is indeed interesting but too much of it makes me feel so tired and bored of it. WHY SEX? people start to question this. Hilarious hor? What's ur first answer to this? Enjoyable and to have babies? Having offspring is definitely right, the ultimate answer. Enjoyable? Hmmm I am not sure, as its not stated in my evo psych txtbook. Chimps do that up to 7 times a day, and they can just do it in split seconds. So, I assume they dun find it enjoyable-ba. :)

As I was reading, the world becomes so crude and realistic. Why females priorize males who are willing to commit? Not that we want them to love us whole heartedly and care for us most, but the deepest secret is that we want them to give us all the money to rear us and invest in our kids (whom can be not even his!) and not spend a single penny on other girls. Man.. cruelty hor... when I tell Cy this, he say " girls are so mean and realistic.."

I answered, " yes yes yes, I will tell u the truth about men when I read until that part!!! wluek"

Generally, males prefer attractive females. that's true, no doubt. WHY? to be better contribute healthy gene to his offspring and no hanky-panky unwanted genes in his offspring. More to that, if males are faced with other more attractive females, they derogate their current partner, and even if possible dump the current one and go with that more beautiful one! "Men are superficial! "

Okay, those are just evolutionary perspectives in which they attempt to explain every behaviors! It still depend on us to judge....

wluek.

Back to books... biopsych now! no more sexy topic... lol

Such a BIG day...

Its 13th again of the month, meaning its Cy and I's monthly anniversary. We were too occupied in preparing for examination till we forgotten about it! Upon receiving sms from TING at 12 midnight wishing us Happy 5 years and 9 months, I got shocked and started to niao Cy for forgetting! LOL...

Chocolate cake from PrimaDeli. Cy bluff me that he is going to look for a friend in can 2. Then, he secretly went to buy it for me. LOL I didnt give much thought to what his reason was to go out cause I plan to DOTA! LOL I just can't quit! However, the cake was s0-so only. Can't fight secret recipe's chocolate mud! (I miss it so much!!) and sorry for the not-inverted pic. Too lazy. :)

Btw, its a big day today. Apart being our anniversary, there will be a big football match MANU vs Arsenal. Oh gosh, too big a match to be missed. *guilty* But I will still be watching. Yes, being a MANU supporter, I do hope they win! Secretly let me tell u, I am a jinx. Each time I watch MANU loose or draw. *cry*. Still dun care.... today I shall break that idiotic curse! :P

goodluck everybody in ur final, JIA YOU!

Wrinkles....

Are you worried about gaining wrinkles? Don't think that you are young and you can escape... haiz check it out yourself.

According to today's TODAY....

HOW MANY WRINKLES WILL YOU HAVE THIS YEAR?

1) If you go out without sunscreen everyday... add 25 lines (I escape)
2) If you go smoke... add 15 lines (I escape)
3) If you sleep less than 8 hours a day... add 10 lines (Me)
4) If you skip breakfast regularly... add 10 lines (I escape)
5) If you don't exercise regularly... add 5 lines ( Me)
6) If you laugh, frown, or smile... add 5 lines (Me)
7) If you sleep on one side... add 5 lines (Me)

Sucks.. according to that, I gain 25 lines a year. OMG Imagine when Im 40 years old. How many lines will I gain? :(

Alright, just something fun to share..... LOL
(back to books)

My dear friend

I know I'm not suppose to be blogging until my final is over, yet, I am kinda worried for a friend of mine whom suspected to be in great trouble. I do hope that my suspect or worries are unnecessary and in the end, you will laugh at me due to my own foolishness. No matter what, since I will not be updating my blog any sooner, this post will remain the first post so that if you happen to drop by by chance to read. :)

My dear friend,

I hope that you are truly fine now even though your problems may seems so overwhelming and suffocate your rational thinking. But I wanna remind you that, just because you are in darkness right now, feeling so lonely and feel no point being strong to search for the light to leave the sucky black cave, you are not alone! You are not alone! Remember this! We are all with you. Just that you can't see us temporarily. So, you shall not give up, put down your flameless stick and take another one. And you shall see us!

Take care my dear friend. Wish you all the best and may you revert back to your old self.

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Exam is really approaching soon, and I am again ill-prepared. Even though its only like one more week, I still have one more test and oral presentation for Chinese,LC81. One more research proposal to hand up. And one more 5% quiz for evo psych. Now you can understand why sem 2 of maybe this sem sucks! ><"

I am getting use to sucky semesters. Can't wait for exam to be over and the planssss shall fall in place!

1) Analaksmi on the very last day of our exam, and spend $2 coupons from GV.

2) Redang trip in June (stephie, are u joining us? )

3) BBQ in ECP organized by pres's husband. LOL (Make sure u organize k, toolbox! LOL)

4) ZOO outing in July!

That's all for now.

Goodluck for those having exam ya!

Correction~

I just realise there is a typo error is previous post. LOL Paiseh.. my exam ends on 3oth April. Hah Luckily it was just a typing error, if its true, I think I'll die!

I questioned myself today why am I being so stress up. I think I make Dino very very worried about me. Xian also asked me that yesterday in library. In fact, i am only taking 5 subjects and with one subject SU-ed somemore! Perhaps, I think my aim of maintaining my CGPA abover 4.5 or trying my best to strive for a EUREKA this year is the factors that builds more and more stress in me!

As I was studying alone in a bench just now while waiting for my next tutorial, I smelled a very familiar smell. One smell that I have forgotten for a long time, or one that I never imagine I had buried it in my memory! That guy was wearing the exact same cologne as my father. He smelled exactly like daddy. I find it difficult to swallow my saliva and i finnaly cried alone at the bench. In the attempt to hold my emotion, I keep staring at the same spot on my book. In the end, my tears still flowed out. I miss my dad~ I miss my family.

Never have I thought that the decision I made to come here to study will require me to sacrifice so much. I hate the fact that I am a grown-up. I hate the fact that I am away from home. And now I hate being able to excel in studies and that make me feel that I am obliged to retain the similar results or even striving higher one~ T_T

I am unsure if its impulse or what. Supposedly, this coming 3 months summer holiday, I was offered to publish a joint paper with my Professor. However, I dunno why the impulse today at the bench asked me to turn down the offer and go home. *dillemma* So, in the end, I think I will email my prof if we can start in end of July. At least I'll have the entire one month at home in May.

*wave goodbye* (be back after exam)

Exam is approaching~

Yes, the dreadly period has come, and my zombie mode is now available.

Again, the stress seems to be overwhelming again,

I binge on chocolates and fried chicken today,

but it was to no avail at all!

I shall leave this place for a moment,

or else I will end up provoking everyone,

So, I shall not blog for now,

and even I do,

it will be more complaints....

Sorry friends if I had accidentally hurt your feelings,

please forgive my insensitivy.

Julyn running away from social circle for a while...

Be back on 30th May (last day of exam)

Goodluck and happy studying *sulk*

Tagged by Mei syn....

2005 in Form 6

2007 in Sg

2008 ~

Changes in physical look definitely is a big one to me. But deep down, I know I changed a lot, from being insensitive and playful to being more able to understand and compromise with others. I know life is a journey of learning, and though I have learnt a lot in past years, yet, there are more in future.

Hmmm, according to the tag, I'm suppose to describe what causes the changes...

1) Hair cut... that's the only thing I do to my hair though cause I have natural brownish hair (yay, thanks to good genes bluek... ) so, from no style long straigh hair to layered with short fringe to short bob hair style. :) *grin*

2) clothing? The pic is taken in school le, and I was wearing the ugly librarian uniform! *sulk* I hate the yellow shirt. I wore it so irregularly in school until most of the teachers and friends forgotten I'm one. I am sure many of u also forgot I was right. KNS! I was a librarian le! LOL

3) Make up... I only started using it though, in the last pic 2008. Nothing much, just brow and eye liner and mascara. I ought to draw my eye brow. Or else, my sis keep saying she can't see them! *sucks* (bad hairless gene i got from parent... LOL)

4) Weight? I was not fat in f6, but just thinner now.. LOL What you expect rite? Form 6 is all about studying and eating! :P No regret sial. I love tandoori chicken, prata, nasi lemak, mi goreng, etc etc!

5) Facial factor. I got lots of pimples last time. Reduced thanks to sponsor from mom that allow me to go for regular treatment! Hail ruler facialists~ Bleah (Bad genes again that give me poor complexion) LOL

6) Camera factor? You see, the pic so blur one! Haizz... the recent one much clearer! :P WLUEK

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Back to study. Oh ya, reminder for everyone, its April Fool today. Don't be fooled! Btw, I was already being conned yesterday. I have bad friends. They purposely come and con me! *scream* I will tell the story maybe tmr. Yay..

Enjoy~