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Erm.. I feel it has been long since I last updated my blog.. and there are a thousand words to trpe and share.. and dozens of pictures to upload.. wow.. seems too heavy for my HOME's streamyx to handle though! So, I shall wait till I get back to NTU to do all that! Wahaha.. If I were to over use the connection here, I think I will take hours! :(

Alrite, let's briefly update, MANIC just went back to Singapore yesterday! We had so much fun fun fun in MLK for the 4 days 3 nights stay in my house!! Yam, MM, Stephie, and JY!! Make sure you all make it next year k? :P We can go for shopping spree! :)

After this short Mlk trip, I will be heading to KL this friday with my Dad and sisters. Well, its only a one-day trip but I hope I could get something for myself.. I haven't buy anything for CNY! :P

On friday night itself, Cy and I will be going to Penang!! Wow!! I am super busy travelling!! I am sure the trip will be fun! Hokkien mee, asam laksa, fried kuey teow... Hmmm delicious but errr a lil too oily! DIET STARTS TMR??!! Wahahaha

By right, Im suppose to go back to NTU straight from Penang.. but looks like i can't since my passport is not ready! Its stuck with the agency! Haizz going to China is so 'ma fan'. I hate making VISA!!! It makes me have to come back here to take my passport and go back to Singapore the next day!! ARGHHHHHHHHHHHH so tiring!!

So, as planned, I shall be back to Singapore by 5th!! So dear MANIC, do plan a MANIC outing ya!! It has been long long long time since all of us have proper gathering!! :)

Okiez.. I know I will be travelling here and there! haha So, no update till I get settle down again next week! Btw, the only thing I feel sad is I can't be in Sg yesterday with Ivy and Peiyee ! I hope u girls have fun!!! :P

WLuekkkkkkkkkkkkkkk

Long day! :)

It has been some time my blog is lacking of pictures or photos! Due to the examination, I guess most of us are stuck either in NTU or home! When I went to Jp yesterday, I felt as though all along when Im in NTU, Im not in Singapore! Once I stepped out of it, the feeling of boarding a 179 has never been that good! haha! Btw, once I reach Jp, I see decorations everywhere! Man.. CHRISTMAS is coming!! Can you imagine that? I love christmas day! Its a giving-receiving day! Woo Hoo! :)

Today, I went to Bugis with Ting, Xian, and Steph! Haha.. It feels different today though! Usually we meet to study! Hah! But today, its a free and fun day! :) Xian and I went to get the bus tickets to Mlk in Lavender b4 meeting the rest! And... we got lost! ><" I can't believe we got lost in Singapore and I am with a singaporean! ><"" <= double dotz! In the end, we both got tired and simply gave up walking back to the MRT station to take train to Bugis. $2.90 for the cab ride is certainly worth it! :P

Lunch today was great in new Bugis food court! Nice and comfy seats! :) Plenty of variety of course! Haha.. And we watched Enchanted! Wow.. the fairy tale movie is fantastic and superb funny! :P Everyone in the Cinema laugh so loudly! Haha Should watch peepz!!!

After the movie, we got so excited about the movie and we took some really funny pic with the poster! :P

The proper one!

All of us... the witch, chipmuck, princess and prince! :) I know.. we are crazy!

Xian and Stephie.. the witch and the chipmunk! The chipmunk is damn cute la! I mean the chipmunk in the movie Btw.. wahhaha

Steph and I.. She was suppose to be the princess and Im the price.. :p

=Ting and I=

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Not only does my blog has been lacking of food photo! Hahaha

Below is tempura ice cream from Ichiban! Delicious! :)

Desert is absolutely a must in Jap restaurant! I miss Sushi tei and SUN! :)

It has finally ended!

Woo Hoo... at 5.00pm sharp just now, it was a temporary independence for me! There is no need to study, no need to keep closely to the deadlines, and no need to drink caffein just to stay awake!

3 reasons why examinations should be abolished:
1) It makes people lead unhealthy lifestyle.. Sleep late wake up early, and supper, and no exercise! T_T I miss swimming!

2) It makes people stress. Thus, it may not accurately test student's understanding! People usually don't do that well under stress.. rite? :)

3) Due to the tremendous stress it causes, it indirectly results in pimples in us! T_T So, sad la.. and during exam period, I have no time to properly scrub my face and put mask! My skin got dehydrated! Arghh.. I am in need of facial!


Okiez. let's be exam-free k! I know I have been blogging for the past few entrie all about exam! :P

hehe, after the paper, went to Jp to meet Cy! Haha... the whole journey to Jp with HH and Jy was superb funny! Its nice to catch back with Jy. I just realise the whole semester just went by like that and I never really had a good chance to chat with her.. cuz she always pon lec or listen very attentively to lecturer! Hehe

Yep, after the super filling Ichiban Jap food, my stomach is bloated up till now! Fortunately, I do not need to feed on canteen food anymore! :) I am going back to Malacca! So happy! And this time, my family can meet my frens! Woo hoo.. :)

However, after coming back from Jp, I felt a bit lost! Usually, I will be gan cheong wanna finish up whatever undone and try to revise as much as I can! But right now, I am so so so free! So a lil bu si kuan!

More disgusting is, I am already trying to plan time table for next semester! Still think whether I should clear more than 5 subjects? If I do, I will be super stress and If I don't I can't clear my AUs on time by year 4. T_T

The holiday has started! And I know time flies and its gonna end fast too! Bye to semester 1 year 2 and hooray! Welcome holiday!! :)

Hapyy..

Finally, I stood the test of time that I manage to draw myself to the examination all today even though I clearly know that I never prepare well for this particular module! *sigh* I wished I had more time to study, but clearly there aren't any! I cried the whole night yesterday! When I woke up this morning, my eyes was swollen! I wasted the whole night liao, so I woke up early morning to study! T_T

Then, when I went to the canteen b4 the paper, the uncles there all knew they see stress in this tensed up looking girl! I gave a meak smile when he asked me to be strong!

Erm, actually, the paper was not that difficult. It was just fine for a ill-prepared person like me. At least, it tested on fairly what I studied before for the mid term! :) So grateful!

So, after tat, went back to canteen 5 with Cy to have some evening tea! He gave me such a relieve look, and said he was happy to see me happy! Haha! I didnt know I looked so scary before that! There is another uncle from the noodle's stall gave us 2 packets of 'liang cha' yesterday! So touched that these people actually care! :)

Okiez. 2 more papers to go.. Chinese language and Cognitive Psychology. *sigh* but after that, its HOLIDAY

If nothing goes wrong,
this sunday, Melaka trip with MANIC
Next week, Penang trip with Cy
and mid DEC, HongKong with family!

*grinz*

Hmmm..

One down, three more to go...

Today was the first core paper for the semester, well, am I happy that it finally started! The horrifying week, where all the core packed up together, leaving no days in between for any last minute preparation! Hmm, am happy today cuz I finally see almost all MANIC except for Jiaying. Err, why u leave the hall so early? Haiz.. However, the paper was no good at all, then most of us except for HH, Yam and MM went canteen 2 to eat something to calm down.. but the wafer stall was just too crowded! Haiz can't even eat icecream to make me feel better. In the end, I had ice milo and brownies. Sorry Xian, I totally forgotten about ur ribena! I shall continue to comfort myself with hot herbal soup later! :)

Okiez, I better stop typing or else more incoherent thoughts pop into my jumbled-up mind!

Wish me luck for tmr's Personality Psych paper.. one that I never prepare! T_T *jul is regret over her laziness*

P/S:
1) Stephie, eat more.. dunno why after one week no see, I feel u get skinnier
2) Goodluck everybody for upcoming papers!
3) Holiday, I am coming! Wahahaha

I hate..

While everyone is studying,

I am slacking,

I hate it when the stress is mounting,

yet I can't concentrate!

I wish to have a mind like the beam of light,

as I can focus to where I want!

Unlike now, the light seems scattered!

So angry and depressed,

arghh

T_T.

I hate it when its evening,

the half sunny half gloomy sky,

reflecting exactly how I feel,

no matter how hard I try to repress it,

the stupid sky just show it to me,

I feel the sudden delusion of reference,

everything negative is refering to me!

I hate it when I am alone,

I loose interest in everything,

I dwel in incoherence and procratination,

the bed invite me to sleep,

notes slap me to wake up!

I ought to study besides just staring!

T_T

I hate it when its exam,

I am surprised I am not intoxicated by caffein,

overdosage of caffein only sufficiently make me awake until about 2am,

without it,

I basically tumble and fall!

T_T

I hate it when I grumble,

I spoilt everyone's mood!

I keep reminding myself I am not alone,

many else struggling this with me,

I ain't alone,

I keep saying,

but the reality is to painful,

I can't handle stress.

T_T

As fast as lightning!

When everyone is busy preparing for their exams, giving their best to do the last minute revisions, and do nothing else but studying, I took a pause a while ago and realise that time is really moving fast! Ting say we always say the same whenever we are approaching towards the end of the semester! That's true. You hear people saying, "Time flies le.. this semester so fast gonna end!"

Basically, year 2 semester 1, I spent half the semester squatting in Cy's hall. I made a lot of friends here! :) It seems that I suit here pretty well and people who don't really know me thought that I am a fiver! Haha.. I like it here, cause whereever I go, I see familiar faces!

Then, in the mid of the semester, I got hall 13! If its not stephie and ting in hall 15 and Qi staying right opposite me, I think I will bore to death there! T_T My roomie, a vietnamese is nice and friendly, but sometimes, communication problem do occur! As in, our slang differs!

Nevertheless, the mugging time in LWN and Trex is always fun.. joke-filled atmosphere which makes me laugh despite the overwhelming stress in me! Sorry girls, that I MIA for a while already.. :P And the Ribena spree is totally funny! Its been a while since the last cup! Haha.. :P

Okiez, better stop with flashing back and get back to the reality! I can't wait for the holiday.. In which is coming real soon! I wanna go home, Penang, Batam, swimming!! (this time for real, cuz ting and I always imagine us swimming while walking to lecture.. How sad rite? Haha)

Wluek..

P/S: Take care everybody, Jia You and study smart! Do drink lots of water.. :)

Sien 3

3 more days to go to the dying day.. T_T

Tuesday: Abnormal Psych

Wednesday: Personality Psych

Thursday: Chinese Language

Friday: Cognitive

I am unprepared! I need help and guidance! Can anyone just tell me how to read faster and memorise facts quickly and efficiently ? I am going to faint in the midst of the hard-core facts from abnormal txt! The facts are interfering one another playing me as a fool! *angry* So many chapters and all seems important.. till I have no idea which to priortise! :(

Since, Thursday, I only managed to chiong:

Anxiety disorder

Personality disorder and substance abuse

Eating disorder

Sexual and Gender Identity disorder!

Chapters I have NOT cover!:

Cognitive disorder

Childhood and adolescence disorder

Schizophrenia

Mood disorder and suicide

Therapeutic intervention

Models of abnormal psychology

More depressing is I havent started revising Personality!!

T_T

I weeped again yesterday for this irritating examination.

I really sincerely hope that it will be over real soon!

Holiday, where are you?

:P

Today was my first paper! Well, I guess it went quite well for first paper. Usually, I will be very stressed and 'gan chiong' for the first one! But luckily this time round, its an elective and only 50 questions MCQ. :) So, OK!


Next, with that I need to stop procratinating on starting revising Abnormal Psych! I kept telling that I will I will I will start once GenesRus is over! And now that its over, I realise that I am left with 5 days? (I loose count in time and date!) to complete 17 chapters!! *depressed*


Moreover, next week is totally as what Jy said.. World war 3! 4 papers consecutively from Tuesday till Friday! I am wondering how am I gonna die! Walking in to the exam hall, unprepared, mixed-up facts due to me randomly trying to study everything ending up confusing myself!! Can die!!


But, after next Friday, I will be free! *hooray* opps, at least temporarily free until next semester! :P Can't wait for MANIC's trip down to Malacca, gathering after exams, trip to Penang with Cy, and more more more!!
*Wluek getting high just with the thoughts of holidays :)*

Its late right now, but I am still struggling with anxiety disorder.. I am hating the speed I am reading! Anybody have any idea to improve my pace of reading? :( And upon reading sub-topic on phobia, I realise that I am such a phobic person!!


I am seriously afraid of lizard.
I am afraid of dentist.
I am afraid of height! I actually came down with hands trembling and tears flowing down after one trip on that scary roller coaster!
I am afraid of germs and dust! When I see it, I get disgusted!


er... does that mean that I am an irrational person? wahaha.. cuz the formal definition of phobia is intense and irrational fear of any object or situation! :P


Okiez.. better get going with studies..



wLuEk..

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Oo.. Some food sharing of course! I am obsessed with fruit+yogurt! :)

YummY!

Sien 2

2 more days to go...

Goodluck to everyone taking their finals now!

Persist and be patient for the sweet holiday after the disgusting period ya! :)

till then....

WLUEK

Sien

4 days to go.. to my very first final paper, GenesRUs, my science elective! T_T I am so unprepared for this paper cause I had been busy studying my core subjects! SIEN!

And rite now, even my core subjects are also lagging behind! Help!! I am so stressed up by the very tight schedule and am grumbling that I have no enough time, yet I am so SIEN of this life-style. Basically, every morning once I open my eyes, I bathe, get ready, STUDY, eat, STUDY, eat, STUDY, sleep. :( I can't wait for the holidays to come! Sometimes, I wonder why am I so stressed up? Is it because I just want to maintain my GPA? If only I didnt get to that class honor, perhaps I dun have to strive so hard just to maintain it! T_T

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A present I received yesterday. Wonder why I only took a picture of it when its still wrapped? Its because its the sincerity to give something that is most important despite whatever inside! :)

Thank you very much!

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Was studying in LWN for long hours just now.. and I guess everybody studies too much and develop very severe disorder! look at what Ting and Xian did to my cup of coffee! Erm, they basically enjoyed themselve "decorating" my cup though! :) Hehe

Those written are just the modified version of WLUEK.. eg pluek, zluek, hluek, yluek.. erm.. haha! Then, we even pronounce them in the 4 tone chinese pinyin.. Unbelievable crazy! LOL

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Ok. back to my book b4 I want to sleep! Jia you ppl!!

:)

Its Deepavalli tomorrow! Happy Deepavalli to everyone.. But I know, no one is in the midst of any mood to enjoy the public holiday! Instead, many people will be grumbling that the library and some canteen will be closed tmr! T_T How no life is that.. Ting even want to go down to study room at 9am to 'chop' table!! :(

As usual, becoming part and parcel of my days, i didnt complete what I wanted again today! I calmed myself with Haagen Daaz again! Hehe.. I guess the icy cold ice cream yet freeze my stress up! :)

No you see!!

Now u don't! :P

But its ok, I still have another tub of belgium choc! :)

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I guess we were just too bored! :)

Happy!

I am super happy today.. I am surprised that I was not pek chek even though I only manage to complete only half of what I suppose to complete! :P

Went for Chinese oral, and was told to read the pinyi! OMG.. frightening cuz my pinyin really sucks. I was so 'gan chiong' that I keep counting each of the four tune correctly! In the end, I scored full marks! So happy! Then, teacher gave back mid term and my essay paper! Hehe, I scored full marks too! Then, without thinking I said to her "thank you teacher". Man, I sounded like I was in primary school. ><"

Okiez. Then, got back personality psychology's mid term paper! Well, I did better than I expected! Xian gonna grumble at me! She say I was say scare scare scare.. die die die.. then will do ok! But I seriously feel scared and worried ma! T_T

Oh ya, not forgetting to thank CheeHui le! So nice of her to give me 'billy bomber' $15 voucher! :) Shall go and eat after my final paper! Hooray! Just cant wait for the day! :) So, rite now I have 2 voucher to claim.. BillyBomber and $10 from Ichiban! Eat so much! can die!

:) I shall try to 'chiong' another topic for cognitive! Then, I will be more more happy! yay..

Angry

Alrite, I started off happy wanting to blog about what a happy yesterday and today was! But, as I was browsing thro some blog, I found out that there is a terrible horrible inhuman news happening in Msia! I really can't believe my eyes as I parse thro the sentences in the news! And my heart felt so heavy as though its beneath my body! T_T Speechless~ Totally unbelievable that there was another murder case of a kid! I mean, she is just 12 years old! yet, life is just too short! T_T. Condolences to her family~ Whoever that did that idiotic crime, you deserve not even shit!

See, now my mood is disturbed! *angry*

Just a brief update, went to CHC yesterday, then Cy and I claimed our free pizza from swensen!

The free pepperoni pizza

salad~

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Dedication from Cy~

Touched!

Jul is touched! That is why I put my books and notes aside just to blog! Despite the disgusting final and irrational stress building up in me, my friends whom nevertheless feel less stresser than me gave me strength and care! I feel so touched and glad!

> Xian, I was stunned that day when you hopped towards me, I was thinking what u were trying to do! I though U wanna whisper some top secret to my ears, BUT instead you gave me that warm hug! *smiles*

> Ting, who is so nice brought me a Ribena today! and wang wang biscuit! I know you care! Love you!

> Stephie, you always cheer people around you with ur innocent face and ur unintentional evil thoughts! Who will ask this question "Are you treating or we have to pay you? " This girl is just so atypical! But I surely gonna miss u max when u go for GIP! T_T

> Jiaying, I love your sms this morning! I started my day with ur sms! Seriously, thank you! :)

> HH!! I didnt know u read my blog ar!! Since when u so mysterious?? :P But u reveal by tagging in my blog! Yay!

> Jy, who also showed his empathy towards me this morning by giving a few encouragement words! But, later he sms back saying that he was just being kind to animal! *angry*

> Jane! My friend for decade! I noe u are stress too! But never will I wan to imagine us crying together le! so sad! :)

> Everybody! I know you care and u noe who u are! TQ TQ...

> Last but never never the least! Cy. What is there to elaborate! Without him, I canT survive. My pillar of strength and channel to release my stress! :P

Drama!

Exam is drawing real near. I guess there is no need for me to elaborate how near it is and how stress am I! I ought to follow the very tight plan I set for myself!

Due to my brilliant planning, I create more tension within myself! and guess what!! I burst out crying in the LIBRARY.. such a public place! Worse of all, in front of toolbox and weehock (Cy's fren)... Erm, Xian, Ting, Stephie and Cy were all there! I usually dun bother about how I look when I cry in front of people I am close to! But toolbox and weehock! Man, I can see those speechless look on their faces!

T_T (My blury eyes, and red nose heng! I didnt wear mascara today!)

So paiseh after that! But nevertheless I wanna thank Xian who gave me that warm hug, and those comforting pat from ting and Stephie! Love you girls... Totally distress me! Its better than swimming! :)

Julyn will study her best! and shall not be stressed!!

Self-tag from Stephie.. PEK CHEK!

For once! I am not tagged but I really want to blog about the same thing! Thanks to Stephie who started the tittle for me! "PEK CHEK IN SCHOOL"

1) I happily think the chapters I set forth for myself today wouldnt be that hectic! Its one chapter 1 and 2. Introduction shouldn't take so long right?? Yet, I am not finish with it despite I started reading from morning! Argh.... *stressed*

2) I am undone with the lecture notes on Genes that Im suppose to complete by YESTERDAY! I stared blankly at it just now! I felt lost! T_T

3) Spent 1 hour in nonsense tutorial today! However, I am thankful that Deepvalli is next Thursday! Hence, today is the last R's tut! He can even happily invited to join in Friday's lesson!! *horror* Who will wan to go? I wonder!

4) I feel so angry at myself staring at my loaf of bread! I forgot again to bring back my tupperware from Cy's room! How am I suppose to bring to school for lunch? Or I shall just let the fungus inhabit in it! After all having micro-pets shall not be a bad idea at all!!

I realise I just channel my pekchek-ness in this entry! I feel better though! At least, I comforted myself that the numbers of pekchek incident stop at 4! :) < Forceful smile!

Alrite, I shall not keep ruminating in this disgusting feeling! Better start reading!!

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Final exam is approaching real soon! Each morning I wake up, one day nearer to exam! The rush of adrenaline causes me to feel stressed up and no room for sleepiness. T_T

Yesterday was a total 12-hour day
1) I was in air cond room for more than 12 hours, from LWN to tutorial room to MSE's computer lab!
2) I wore my contact lense for more than 12 hours thanks to the sudden pour at 12am when I was about to walk back to hall! I was stranded in school until 130am! :(
3) I was studying for more than 12 hours! Happy though as I finished 2 chapters on language! Well, it was 'chim' and seriously it was erm, not very practical! Nobody will consciously or deliberately notice what's going on in the mind when we are reading and listening! Well, and there are whole 2 chapters in my Cognitive textbook just on the problems and solution we human use in languages! Err.. the most saddening truth is those problems and solutions are just abritrary! :( Thanks to Noam Chomsky!